Living on My Own With Diabetes
Today we hear from Nicole Purcell. She’s had type 1 diabetes for nearly 30 years and, just recently, begun living on her own without parents or roommates for the first time – a scary but exciting new journey . If you have any tips for Nicole or others in her situation, please share in the comments.
Oh, god, what if I die?
Not exactly a question that your average 37 year old asks themselves. But there I was, asking that very question.
I had been, for a couple of months, living in a cute two bedroom apartment in Providence, Rhode Island with a roommate. And she had, rather unceremoniously, told me she was leaving, to go back to Texas. In eighteen hours. The very next day.
So much running through my head in those moments, it was hard to get a handle. How was I going to pay the rent and bills on my own? How was I going to afford this? How was the stress going to impact me – at work, in my personal life with other friends? How were my bloodsugars going to react? What if I went low in the middle of the night and there was no one there? And that last one, “Oh, god, what if I die?”
If you haven’t lived with diabetes, I’m pretty sure you’d think I was being melodramatic. I’m pretty sure you’d think “well the chances are so slim.” I’m pretty sure you’d think it could never happen.
But it does. And it has. And being so connected to the diabetes community online, I know that it does. And it has.
In the hours after my soon-to-be-ex-roommate made her announcement, every Facebook update about someone living on their own who had died from too high or too low bloodsugar, who had slipped away in their sleep, came back to me. Every blog post about Dead in Bed Syndrome rung in my ears. Every phone call from a friend to say “I’m so sorry to have to tell you this,” made its way frontward in my heart.
I was scared.
But I realized, in fairly short order, that I was no more scared than I’d been each time I’d faced a first with diabetes. You see, I’ve lived thirty years with this uninvited houseguest, and in all that time, I had never lived alone. I had always lived with someone trusted - a parent, a partner, a friend. I had, of course, slept once or twice alone in a hotel room or a tent, but I had never lived day-to-day without someone there to catch me if diabetes tripped me and I fell. So this was a big first. The prospect of night after night alone with diabetes lay in front of me and I wasn’t sure I could manage it.
That’s when I remembered the first time I’d given an insulin injection, the first time I’d had a convulsion related to an insulin reaction and come out okay on the other side, the first time I’d ventured out on an outward bound adventure, the first time I used my Minimed insulin pump and the first time I’d traveled overseas on my own. All of those firsts seemed pale in comparison, but I knew that when I’d been in the moment, facing those things, they’d loomed just as large and as big-hairy-monster-like as this next big first. And I thought: I can do this.
I called my mom, my best friend, my boyfriend, and my doctor. In that order. We came up with a schedule. My mother, best friend and boyfriend would alternate calling me each morning. If I hadn’t answered by eight, someone would come to my house. Keys were distributed to my “check-ins.”
My doctor helped me to look at my overnight doses and we planned to run my sugars slightly elevated overnight for at least the first stressful weeks, to avoid a catastrophic low. I’d increase my testing from eight to ten or twelve times a day. I’d get back to logging and examining my doses closely. The fridge would stay stocked with juice (no Oops! No juice!), my nightstand would make a nice home for cake frosting, juice boxes, and glucose tabs in an easy-to-open satchel. My boyfriend would stay with me two or three nights a week, sometimes more.
I took a deep breath as my roommate packed her things and flew to Texas. And I took steps toward another first. Feeling fortunate to have a support system, and comforted knowing that the people I loved were there to help.
Those first weeks were not easy. I experienced two overnight lows that were incredibly frightening. One night, I awoke, soaked in sweat and unable to remember where I was. I managed, somehow, to find my phone, and dial my mother. I was making no sense, she says, but she was able to communicate the basics to me “You need juice. You need juice. You need juice. Nightstand.” And she stayed on the phone with me as she texted my boyfriend, who was at my door in fifteen minutes. By the time he arrived, I had gotten a juice box in but my sugar was still only 44 mg/dl.
Since those first weeks and those first scary lows, things have smoothed out. My doctor has been very helpful in looking at bloodsugars with me each week and making adjustments that keep me more stable overnight, I’ve adjusted my eating schedule and I’m having dinner a little earlier to avoid over-bolus disaster. Nighttime exercise is almost always happening before the 8:00 pm hour, again to avoid overnight issues with lag-lows related to activity.
I am extremely grateful to have my Minimed at my side in this venture. Given the struggles I had with MDI therapy, I can’t imagine not being able to adjust my overnight basal rates or having to give full units of insulin versus tenths of a unit when eating or correcting a high bloodsugar. I wish I could afford a Continuous Glucose Monitoring system, which would improve my control even more and take some of the scary out of the late nights I’m spending alone. But even with my health insurance, my out of pocket cost is high, making it difficult to purchase.
And that’s OK, I have excellent tools to make this continued journey on my own easier and more comfortable. More importantly, I have the support of a loving and engaged family and friends and a medical team that treats me as a star-player, but still supports my efforts in a real and helpful way.
In all, another first, tackled. And I’m still here.
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